Stepping out into the unknown

Luke 9:62 - But Jesus said to him,"No one, after putting his hand to the plow and looking back, is fit for the Kingdom of God."

"There will come a day when Love will lift you out of here. There will come a day when Love will bring its Truth.
There will come a day when Love will free you from your fear, and you'll remember I believe in you.
I believe, even when I see you crying. I believe, let me dream for you. When nothing comes from trying, oh remember, I believe in you."
-- Bethany Dillon

This post won't resemble most. In fact, I'm not even really sure where it's going, but hey, that's ok. I remember the last time I started something like this. I had no idea what I was doing, or even why, but I just felt led to write...look where that got me. :)

So here I am, once again, in this place of utter brokenness and confusion, in a place I don't want to be but down a path He has beckoned me to travel. I can't really go into details, but in case you weren't aware the last time, there was a lot more back story to my musings than I let on. I'm not trying to tease you or make you analyze every word looking for cryptic messages. You won't find the answers. In fact, if you do, please let me know them.

Just know that even though I've been told in the past twenty-four hours that I'm 'tougher than nails', I feel like I'm a puddle of emotion, someone that has been in a symbiotic relationship for a very long time and is now realizing that commensalism is what is needed most.

As this month of prayer and fasting continues, please remember me and Breathtaking Ministries in your prayers. As I've told a few already, I feel like I can't describe where I am in my life right now. I just know it's a turning point, much like my time at Cedarville over three years ago. I can't turn back now. I'll never see what is on the other side, if I do...no matter what, I can't turn back now.

Amber